Sunday thoughts....

Went to church this Sunday, the sermon was on praying. I have never been strong in this area and have felt that because of my lack of self discipline, feelings of inadequacy (while praying) and just feeling uninspired after prayer that I must be doing something wrong. Why didn't I felt moved? Why didn't I have some inspiring insite to share with someone afterwards? What makes a good prayer or a bad prayer? Why can't I just simply say "Thank you and watch over the people who are on my heart", why does it have to be a three stage act?

I became comfortable with the following :
* I will not always feel the earth move, but I will have spent the time with my Father all the same.
* I may not have anything inspiring to share but I included my Father in my everyday life and what better way to have a relationship with him.
* I can simply say "Thank you and watch over the people who are on my heart" or I can go into more detail but I don't have to.

These are my prayers and it is my way of communicating with my Father.

I'm not saying that I don't need to do better, I do need to incorporate a daily quiet time but because I hadn't does not mean that God does not love me and it does not mean that I am lost. I am saved!

I know it sounds funny to say that. I have been ignoring a lot of what God has been asking for some time now and have felt more and more disconnected over the years, lost in my own muck you could say but in recognizing my tendencies (prayer and quiet time being the two largest areas) and working with God to get things squared away it has to be possible to feel growth again. I will say that I am scared to death of growth, but I am going to give it a shot.

I am committing to the following:
* Attend this church for the next 6 months and get involved with a small group for my own growth purposes.
* Extend myself and actually meet people, okay so that is the statement that scares me the most, I am the person who gets to church 2 min before (or after) worship starts and heads straight to the door after church avoiding eye contact the whole way if possible.

Anyway those are my Sunday thoughts posted on this be-a-u-tiful Monday morning.....Thanks for reading them. Bless you and if you have any inspiring thoughts, words of wisdom or you just want to throw something out there.....please do :)