While starting this blog I was unsure what to put out here, my thoughts and opinions on what? What would I have to say that other people haven’t already said in their own way? I have since determined probably not a whole lot but it will be interesting in the process. :) I will offer up my opinions on occasions but today it will be my thoughts. If you make it through reading this you may wonder "What in the world is this women blabbering on about?" Honestly I am using this today just to make myself accountable. If I say that I am going to do something and the whole world has access to it (not that they will choose to look at it..lol) than I really should make sure that I stick to it. So here goes nothing….
I have been talking to a few of my friends lately and watching them struggle and grow through issues in their lives. Which has made me question my growth of late….I have decided it is time…time to push forward and make some definite changes. Stagnate is getting old, not just for me I’m sure. Tonight I will quite smoke for the 100th and final time. I will be completely unable to do this on my own as I have tried in the past and failed so I am relaying on God to walk me through this. In quitting smoking I will be forced to face all of those emotional things that I tend to side step by stepping back and smoking to forget it, that may sound strange, maybe someone else who has dealt with smoking and quitting will understand the frustration. I also need to find and dedicate myself to a home church. In an effort to keep myself from feeling vulnerable I tend to just show up at different churches on occasion with out committing to one group of people. It is time to find a home and allow God to build relationships between others and me. I will say that as I type this I am already doubting what I am saying and I will have to consistently pray for God to guide me through all of this as my tendency will be to walk away if/when I am uncomfortable.
If you made it all the way through this thanks for listening and I promise to offer more "fun" things at a later date. Enjoy you day and may God walk with you and bless you.
************************************************************************ "LET THE MORNING BRING ME WORD OF YOUR UNFAILING LOVE, FOR I HAVE PUT MY TRUST IN YOU. SHOW ME THE WAY I SHOULD GO, FOR TO YOU I LIFT UP MY SOUL. PSALMS 143:8"