SOME PICS

1st Pic....

Me and BT and Kings Island. Does that mean yuck....? lol

2nd Pic....

BT as center. I love this pic!

God is love.

Isn't that just the most moving statement. No doubt, no fear, no regret, no worries.

GOD IS LOVE. Truth 101.

Have a good day all!

Been saying Goodbye for years now...

I took the day off work today and the only thing that I really accomplished was going to see my Dad. I lounged around this morning and then left to visit him with thoughts of coming home and cleaning up the house and getting some organizing done. But I did not succeed in getting anything but dinner done once I got home. Although the visit was good I always seem to come home with a feeling of dread.

It is so hard to see my Dad get sicker and weaker year after year, as the title says, he has been saying goodbye for years now, but looking at him now it seems to hold a certainty to it, unlike before. The once 6ft 3in 200 lb man is now 5ft 7in at best and probably weights 120 dripping wet. He was in the military when I was born and then left to become a pastor when I was 8. Some where along the way things went wayward (as life tends to) and when I was 11 my parents divorced. It was, as most divorces are, a little messy. For years I did not communicate with my father unless I was forced to, due to many unanswer, unresolved questions/feelings. But at a crucial point in my life, where most of the people I felt were close to me walked away, my Dad stood up and supported me. That was the turning point in our relationship, he was not just some guy I called my Father but he became my Dad. We have been getting to know each other for the last 13 years and he is a big part of my life. I will miss him and don't even want to think of him not being here to call up when I want to.

I know that Dad has been saved and that his life is as it should be but the selfish part of me wants him here with us, so my son will get to know him as he grows up. He has so much wisdom to offer, most of which I haven't tapped into myself. I need to get to know him better myself as I really feel like I have only had 13 years with him and some of those has been from a distance also.

I am struggling to find peace in saying goodbye to him here and now even though I know he will be well taken care of and completely out of pain.

BRANDON'S FOOTBALL PICTURE

Finally!!! I win..lol

Here is the picture....grade me on a learning curve

Ok - if the picture shows up this time...BT on the Lions (6th grade)....If not I am going to call it finished and get some help before trying again.

Back up and running...agian

Finally I got this all hooked up and ready to go...I am going to try to attach a pic of my son from football. Hopefully this works. His teams biggest game (in big games for little league...lol) is this weekend. It will decide if they go to the WYB Super Bowl or not. They are all so exicited and you can just feel the competion over this game at practice. It is funny to see how into this they get at this age. Just for the posibility of being called the League Champions, no trophies or anything just a title. If I could only find a way to harbor that excitement and move it into other areas of his life (mine too sometimes)

God bless you all and have a Wonderful Day!!!